Frustrated

Last night another "big" thing happened...something that shook my faith with the current company I'm working for. Well, I applied for a position on another account, some sort of a lateral transfer. It's a daytime account and all we just need to do is to email clients for business renewwal. It's like the same job I am currently holding, the only thing that has changed is the schedule. It offers 6am to 3pm shift with weekend rest days. I have already prepared all the necessary requirements for the transfer only to find out that our Senior Manager again, I repeat, again denied my application. She said theres a scarcity of people in our current program and if they would let me transfer to another program, they need to look for a replacement for me who is qualified for the position. I admit, I was really devastated. I've worked on my scorecard just to have this chance - in fact I've been a Rockstar last month and yet all the response I could get from her is that "we need to find for a replacement that would fill in your job". Well, I hate it! I know I have already asked God for guidance. I know it's already out of my hands but my first reaction of course is anger and frustration.

Though I really don't intend to stay long since I'm just waiting for my retirement on October, I still wish to try a different LOB before I leave. I want to maximize my stay, meet new friends, learn new stuff...but my manager already shut the door of opportunity for me. My previous superior talked to me earlier and even told me that if I am bitter with what happened, I should not let my colleagues get the negativity in me, else, I should already resign. If only I could, I would! But I still need to stay for another 5 months to get my retirement and I'm outta here! I wish I could tell them about my plans of resigning soon but I need to keep my cool and stick with my plans. I just want to vent out my angst though I know this negative feeling will be gone later. Anyways, I still love my work, it's just that I don't like the feeling of having to believe something that is really not feasible like asking for a lateral transfer. They should start telling their people that lateral transfers are just meant for people are not capable of doing anything so people won't waste their time sending letter of intent and printing resumes. Enough of this, I should go to sleep now. It'll be a long day later.

Hectic Week

Waaah, there are a lot of things happening to my life right now...I need to breath....

Well, first we just recently opened our new and improved JOMI mini grocery. We made some major renovations in the house and changed the whole appearance. We need to put up a business if I need Jojo to stay here in the Philippines. He was supposed to apply as a steward in a Shipping company where my sister in law Melody is currently working. But of course, at the last minute, I again asked him to just stay with me and well just gonna put up a business together. So here it is, currently we are managing our store with limited stocks but we will be in full force on May 15. We will be getting our Quality Bonus on the 15th and another 30k would all be donated to our business. I was supposed to buy a new laptop but I know I need to work on our future. If I won't do this now, when?

new and improved JOMI store

In my search for online jobs available, I stumbled upon a site that hires article writers. I hurriedly sent a letter of intent and sent my resume as well. The manager contacted me and interviewed me through yahoo messenger. He asked me how many articles can I write in a day and all those. I told him that I really can't commit that much since I have my regular job. He started to ask me how I was able to know stuff about online advertising so I told him that I used to work for a website company for almost four months. He asked me if I know SEO...at first I am hesitant since I only have very limited information about it but with confidence I said yes. He told me that they are currently seeking SEO Specialist and asked me if I want to apply. Can't really tell what crazy idea came into my mind when I said "I wan't to give it a shot". Are you kidding me? Soon enough he asked me to fill out some forms online and asked me to wait for his decision the next day. I was surprised to get a text message from him saying, I was hired. WTF! He asked me to commit at least two hours of my day, which will happen between 10am to 12NN Monday thru Friday and I will work side by side with their website developer. He is willing to pay me $10 per hour for some SEO stuff and content writing as well. I would try to read and study some tricks about SEO, I hope I can do well.

I really don't know what will happen in these new adventures in my life but it sure is worth the risk. Maybe this is high time for me to get out of my comfort zone and go into my courage zone. I just hope and pray that everything will work out just fine.